New Year's Eve was bad. I spent the last hour of it and the first few hours of the first day of CNY bawling my eyes out of its sockets. I am sooooo weak, I hate myself sometimes. Sigh. I don't know if I can be considered strong for being able to hold on all these while or... Oh wells, all I can say is, I really tried my very best to make things work and to still be there for you but you've decided to take flight anyhow. Hurts so damn bad and scarred for good but I also think I cried the last of my tears.
I'll just let the beautiful memories stay and time heal my soul, and no, I still don't hate you or blame you for anything. I'll still be here should you ever need me.

Time to move on fatfaceself!
Sometimes I wish I had a sister or just a sibling I'm close to. I'm sure I'll move on much faster. Friends are good and I'm really thankful for those that were there for me all these while but there's always a time I feel bad for whining too much so, family's always best. I know I can always count on my mum but I really don't wanna disappoint or worry her. Maybe Crystle's right that sometimes you gradually become okay by pretending you are.
I just might cause I haven't cried today since I woke up though I still lapse in and out of sadness. I'm still adjusting my emotions and stuff but I will convince myself someone will love me better.
Step one, find eye candy!
Hmm... And I think I might have already got one. Woots!

I need positivity in my life! So breed it for me okay?
Like what Phil said, Singapore is not small but compact.
Pink elephant theory!

Day two of CNY WILL be better.
x o x o