Work's so tiring today!!!
I hate that Indian guy I worked with today! He's so rude and he vented all his frustrations on me. WHATEVER.
Love said I'm too dependant sometimes. WHATEVER.
Haha.
I don't really care, really. I'm just so pissed he's so rude. He kept shouting at me, that fucker.
That aside, I met nice customers, funny customers, weird customers and I was tipped 10buckeroos for getting a guest 4 glasses of tap water. Hahaha! Idiot!! But good for me. (:
There was a group of ang mohs that came up to me to explain that if X = pleasure, then X = the square root of CMI(Cock Mass Index) divided by TxD(Time times Distance of ejeculation), all to the power of viagra... Or something to that effect. WTF right?! Who in the hell tries to formulate pleasure??!
okay, great. Erm, I actually remembered most of it. Bahh... Haha.
I hate stupid lame cheapo customers who keep asking for ice water especially when it's fucking busy. Okay, granted if you ask once but go to hell if you ask me for a damn refill and only after one pathetic drink cause hello, who drinks ice water all night at clubs??! Some even gave me haughty airs... Seriously, I'd think 'fuck off' is too kind. Who are they to act all high and mighty when the price of their drinks can't even pay for my bra! HAHA. I'm so kidding. But it really gets on my nerves.
And then there are those smokers who ask me for matches or 'a light'! Aye, smoker but no lighter, smoke what shit?! Lighter very expensive meh? Bloody idiots you know?
Actually there are damn many stupid idiots, arrogant bastards, ignorant fools and think-they-damn-good-lookings out there. Some do make great entertainers! Haha.
But it ain't all that bad... I love those who are appreciative of my efforts. A 'thank you' and a smile will suffice. Is that asking too much?
Oh ya, I love bitching at work with the love! Haha. (:
x o x o
HA HA HA!
I am so irritating...
I grumbled all the way from Meridien to Plaza Singapura (which you might not think is very far but I didn't stop grumbling for even a second) about how
love* used to send me home in a cab and now even wanting to take a cab gets me a big 'NO'.
I also kept grumbling how my shopping bags used to be carried and now I carry them all or at the least, most of it...
Then I started to get the silent treatment cause my love know it's all true and had nothing to say though I was incessantly called irritating, 'like auntie'... HAHA.
So I started to grumble how love used to listen to me ao attentively and grab every opportunity there was to talk to me but now, I'm talking to myself more than ever...
In the end, I got a ' I give up' and we boarded a cab and to my place first, of course! HAHAHA.
I'm beginning to think that my true talent lies in grumbling and complaining and making use of that to get what I want. HOHO.
But honestly speaking, I was truely happy cause it feels like the first time together...
Although my love said it was cause I was too irritating, I know it's cause I still matter. (:
I LOVE YOUUU!!!Oh ya,
Steff's in Genting now... I hope she's having a good time. I love you too!
I'll be there to catch you when you fall though I wish I don't have to (cause I don't want you to).
I hope you'll be happy, like seriously. I know what you're going through.
It's not easy but let's be positive okay? Mwahs!
x o x o
Genting was fun but I lost my newly bought camera, which instalments I haven't finished paying and RM250. That dampened the spirits quite a bit... I can still feel the pinch man. That seriously sucked.
In my opinion it's the most stupid way to have lost my stuff. I mean if I was careless and left it somewhere or robbed it would've been more acceptable but for fear of those two happening to me, I kept it in a clutch I hung over my wrist and yet...
So here's how it goes...
I had my clutch over my wrist and I went on into a bumper car, all ready for all the fun and suddenly, I saw my clutch emptying itself, with my money and whatevernot flying all over the place. Imagine the hysterical sight of us struggling to retrieve the stuff - circling the items, preventing other people from rolling over, shouting to alert each other about lingering items - it was crazy. Amongst the stuff that flew out, passports were included. Sing dollars, passports and a pathetic RM10 were retrieved. At first I thought I only lost the money and although I was upset, I wasn't that affected until I realised my clutch was missing a lot of weight, my camera! I don't know how these people move so fast! Really, amongst those fun, how many people could've paid attention to my stuff flying? I had suspects in mind but I can barely remember how they looked like.
My love was saying it's Malaysia afterall and I shouldn't be expecting to get it back, though I was really having hopes. Just my luck, really. Count the number of times I've lost my stuff and now even when I've taken extra precautions... Dang dang dang! ): I just can't believe how rotten my luck is y'know?! I know I'm being extra whiney but I'm really sore about it. SIGH. Okay, I can't get it back already so WHATEVER. I'll just have to chew on it. GAH.
Other than my rotten mood and a few heated exchange of words, I had fun!! The rides took it all away cause I got to scream my lungs out! I guess that helped me in getting some load off my chest plus
my love coaxed me till no end. (x There was no way I could've ruin the holiday any further even if I wanted to. Heh. I really loved the Space Shot! It was damn freakin' scary and thrilling that I could piss in my cherry panties but I loved it! I made
love go on the ride with me three times! It's adrenaline plus afrodisiac. Hoho. Rest of the rides were quite the cheap thrills but were exciting enough to put a smile on my face. Wait till I get the photos from
my love!!
It was great but I don't think
love and I can go on anymore trips in a matter of weeks...
It's so distraughting! I'm really sad, I wanna cry!
I'm gonna miss you baby... ):
x o x o
Work yesterday was so fulfilling cause I felt a lot less clumsy, a lot more helpful, I finally plucked up enough courage to open champagne bottles and my first attempt was pretty damn successful.(:
Ohhh! But I got kissed by an indian cheekopek! My face gonna rot lorrr! PUI. Count himself lucky that he did it as a form of gratitude or else I can't guarantee I won't kick him in his balls! His moustache prick me can? Haha!
I actually like this job better than my Lancome one, which I'm thinking of quitting. Should I?
......
I'm so freaking bored cause the love's at work. Wish I was given shift today too... BOOHOO.
I MISS THE LOVE!
I'm so stickywicky! Yay! Cheers to sticky possessive girlfriends! Haha.
Genting tomorrow!! Though we just confirmed it this afternoon and it's a mad rush, I can't wait! Tours, more tours! I love 'em!
Which reminds me how little time I have left with the love. ):
I don't wanna share my one month!!! *wails*
x o x o
I hate stupid bitches who cling on to what's no longer theirs.
Yeah, I'm possessive but not childish!
PUI.
Get a life.
I would've more respect for her if she didn't prove herself such an infantile. Bleah.
She can go on and try, harder if she likes but I won't give up what I've gotten going thru so much.
I've already taken a step back by allowing her to exist within my parameters knowing she has an ulterior motive so she should learn how to be content and not ask for a million miles by dishing out an ultimatum. PUI.
I wish she called me cause I've so much sense to make.
x o x o
We'll do it all Everything On our own We don't need Anything Or anyone If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? I don't quite know How to say How I feel Those three words Are said too much They're not enough If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life Let's waste time Chasing cars Around our heads I need your grace To remind me To find my own If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life All that I am All that I ever was Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see I don't know where Confused about how as well Just know that these things will never change for us at all If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol
x o x o
Yesterday was my first day at my new work place, where the love works!
I was damn excited at first until I was told I was gonna start work all alone...
I was so bloody scared cause I'm unfamiliar with the entire place and job and everything I need to know. I was so scared till I cried hokay! HAHA. BLAH. I know I've morphed into sucha crybaby but whateverrrr. Haha.
I did feel extra clumsy and stupid and imposing though it didn't turn out as bad as expected...
Just imagine spilling more beer than I can pump... Haha. But that's just the beginning. I got better!! I reallly did. Heh.
I'm looking forward to my next work shift!
Yay!! I'm done with the worst!
Honestly, I feel quite accomplished. Double yay!! (:
x o x o
We can pretend it's all okay but there's still specks of insecurity worming inside me.
Maybe I'm not the same person you knew 8 months and 23 days ago anymore.
Perhaps I'm more demanding, more unreasonable, more possessive and more repulsive than before... The loving doves in the cold vast sky no longer soar.
What brought me here is evil but I'll not give up so easily.
I'll be your perfect lover.Yes, I will.
x o x o
I'm left with burning questions in my head.
Was it really so hard to tell me when I asked?
I think I've told you before whatever it is, if you decide to do it, please let me know. Doesn't that show that I'm already prepared?
I have an uncertain desire to know what kept you back. I wanna know yet there's an inherent fear that I would end up chanting ignorance is bliss.
I'm upset not because it happened though I would've felt uncomfortable and uneasy but because you find it hard to tell me. I don't know what's on your mind and I'm dying to know. I said I'm losing faith cause I'm so unsure of everything right now. I don't even know how you're feeling or what happened. I don't think it's very fair to me. Don't I have the right to know? After all I'm not just a friend... Or am I?
I don't doubt you, I don't suspect anything amiss but for some reasons, I just feel so bitter inside. Don't I even deserve some words of comfort?
You had a long day and probably not a good one but what about me? Spared a thought about how I'd feel? I thought I was someone special? I don't wanna make things worse for you and I hate to see you agonised so no matter how painful it was for me to be left alone, I left you alone. I think for you in such selfless ways and i won't say you haven't done the same but didn't I deserve at least some words of comfort and assurance?
I waited all night and I tried to contact you all night... Imagine my disappointment.
Maybe I'm overreacting or maybe I just need to see you and be in your tight embrace but now, I'm just waiting. For what, I don't quite know yet.
x o x o
