Sometimes I think if I think of you hard enough, you'd somehow miraculously appear in some form or another. I wonder if it's the works of the mythical telepathy we used to think we share or just your permanancy in my thoughts that anytime you appear seems like a time I think of you hard enough. How nescient of emotions I am to have thought it would be easier than this.
My heart skipped a beat and my gut knotted up when I saw your little blue window (only yours is blue) rising from the bottom right hand corner of my screen. My immediate instinct was to click on it and say something, something like I miss you - no, it didn't happen.
I checked and realised I was appearing offline and decided to leave it at that. I guess I was scared. Of what, I don't know.
Maybe I'm afraid of getting too close only to drift even further or maybe I'm just afraid your responses would be too superficial that it'll freeze my senses. All I know is you've finally made me fearful to even try and it's really sad cause I truely think we don't have to be this way.
Your nick says "it's ok to lose someone who doesn't treasure you" - I don't know what that really means, what's it referring to or what's going on but it just got me thinking... A lot.
What about someone who does, and does so very much?
Why does it seem really okay to you too?
I probably shouldn't be reading too much into it but I'm imagining you trying to tell me to dry my tears cause you know...
It's really okay to lose you.

Would it make a difference if I said it's not?
Cause I really think you should know you're still the reason these tears fall.
I think today I miss the way you smell and every ounce of warmth, surge of tingle and burst of bliss that comes with it.

I really wanted to put up pictures of my long, eventful day but I think tonight.
Sigh.
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