I hate this life I'm living, denying everything I'm feeling.
I hate all these sleepless nights, jolting awake from a series of dreams and nightmares.
I hate having to exhaust every ounce of energy I have in me just to have a good, peaceful sleep.
I hate that I still talk about you unknowingly, in a good way, like I used to.
I hate that I still think about you and I hate it even more that tears still fall when I do.
I hate that none of your words were true.
I hate all the emotional turmoil you put me through.
I hate you for not even trying to make things better.
I hate that we're now strangers.
And I hate it so much that despite hating it all, I'm still giving up everything that I want just to please you.

I just hope you've been smiling and I'll learn to be glad.
x o x o