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Thursday, October 16, 2008

太多的是非，太在意总会累。。。
嘴巴长在他人身上，爱怎么说就怎么说；不妨大方带过。
有时沉默不代表默认。。。
要说难听的话，要破口大骂，要撕破脸皮，要在谁的背后捅几刀那还不容易?
但又何必?
况且病猫似乎比疯狗可爱多了!

上了人生中三堂很重要的课:
1 世上没有白吃的午餐
2 有些所谓的友情对有些人是无谓的
3 不要太执着

真心挺我的一个就够了。
真的。

\champagne kisses
3:17 AM

x o x o

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

I just switched off my lights, the cat's at the foot of the bed, snugly curled up into a furball; The darkness is denting my eyeballs and the silence is ringing in my ears; I hear the occasional cars passing the highway just outside my window, across the backyard and over the fence, and the recurrent dripping of water from the shower is beginning to form the chords of a lullaby... The seeming peacefulness is forcing me to address my thoughts - The occasional whiff of cat litter distracts me but it's not enough.

It's not that I'm not over you, it's not that I still miss you but it's just that I don't know if I'll ever be completely healed cause somethings still lead back to you. I'm good, my life's good and I'm happier than I can ever be in the last one year or so but I'm also jaded. Even if I liked someone, I don't know if I can ever bring myself to walk through another journey, which you've proved, may not even have a destination.

So, you'll never know cause I don't want you to know, cause you can't know, cause I don't even think you wanna know. Sitting around waiting for things to happen won't happen cause no one, not even I, ever thought it will happen, cause it's probably better if nothing happens. I can't even say when, how, why or what to begin with and if it were a story, I wouldn't know where to start.
I hope it isn't true but yet sometimes I wish you knew...

The cat's bells are jingling. I think I woke her up with my excessive fidgeting... I tried to hold her in my arms and coax her back to sleep but she doesn't like to be held, unlike me. I don't like spaces; I like being part of a clutter. Spaces make me feel vunerable and tonight I've too much space... And it's on nights like these that I wish you form the clutter on my bed...
No, not you but you... If you know what I mean.

On another note, I watched the Secret Diary of a Call Girl Tv series premiere just now and liked it! Too many nice shows these days plus my HK drama addiction that's taking me away from my assignment schedule.
Note to self: No more procrastination and work due in FIVE days!!!
I've been relaxing and having too much fun for my own good but then again, I've been going to school, which is a nice change from last sem. I deserve a white chip cookie! HA HA. (:

p.s. imissmybff ):

PEACE.

backstreetgirls

backstreetboys

<3

More pics next time! (:

\champagne kisses
3:06 AM

x o x o

Thursday, August 07, 2008

Wouldn't the world be a better place if we just give everyone a chance instead of disliking them for superficial reasons? Wouldn't the world be a better place if we (or you) didn't see a need to pretend so much? Wouldn't the world be so much more pleasant and accomodating if everyone cared more? Seriously, what's wrong with caring?

And cause you think you are all that, you can be all that and do all that. (:

PEACE!

\champagne kisses
7:17 PM

x o x o

I'm about to be bored to death as of this moment. The guys are gaming, Crystle's sleeping (alreadyyyy) and so I'm left here to rot till the wee hours again cause I really can't get used to sleep-early-wake-early lifestyle. Sian-ness. Luckily I'm able to tap on Mark's internet. Haha. I need nocturnal non-gaming friends. Boo. Right now I'm just really needing some McDelivery but there isn't any here and there's no one to drive me! Well, no one virtually available anyway. Roar. Very unhappy and bored - so bored that I'm contemplating reading through my textbooks! Haha. But of course we all know that will never happen. LOL.
Oh, our previous troublesome and fault-finding neighbour has moved out and another one moved it today. This middle-aged uncle from I'm guessing Malaysia or China, from the accent (I don't know how are those two accents are similar but I just think it's either). Hope he's easy-going and nice and it's peace from now on!
Meowzrs have been making funny noises ever since I brought her back (by the way she is now twice of what she used to be but a lot more tame). I don't know what calls are those but sound like mating calls to me. Lol. Gotta de-sex her soon!! Crystle and I let her and Gatsby 'play' together and they seemed to be fighting but yet not hurting each other. I can't decide if it's friendly or hostile but they get very excited upon seeing each other. Crystle has a video and we'll see when she uploads it. Quite funny cause they keep running (when I say running I mean sprinting) around and we lost them at some points. Haha. (:
On another note, Olympic games starting!! Quite excited but I don't think I'll get to watch the Singapore competitors (yes, surprisingly I have a lot of nation pride!).

From before I came back. I miss Singapore life and friends already... ):

But I guess Perth's not that bad. Besides freezing my ass off and being bored to death, there are still mesmerizing rainbows to save the day! I saw TWO at the same time that day!! (:

\champagne kisses
12:06 AM

x o x o

Monday, August 04, 2008

You know I've always had a thing for one-liners. I subconsciously like reading people who litter their entries with witty one-liners or are intuitively cryptic. It just gives me room to imagine. Haha. So today, I shall sum up my thoughts in a line... But before that, I need to jot down that I cleaned up Mark's puke last night after he got fckn wstd cause I wanna make sure I get repaid on this one. Lol. I'm positive the only reason why I'm falling sick now is cause I inhaled all that toxic fumes that evaporated from his puke. GROSS. :S

And, please don't take my sunshine away. (:
Go figure!

Goodnight
&
<3
!
P.S. I really hate the cold. ):

\champagne kisses
2:08 AM

x o x o

Saturday, July 26, 2008

I think I'm getting addicted to showers cause I'm feeling increasingly ecstatic and pleased after my showers and my baby bath seems to be running out exceptionally fast these days. Hmm...
Anyway, my feet hurt from my peeptoes. I think I bought them half a size too small - I blame the cold weather in Perth that shrunk my feet while I tried them on - cause the front portion of my feet are crushed to a numbing pain. ): I won't give them up though... Too pretty. Lol. Totally willing to sacrifice comfort for beauty! Actually only for shoes cause the only footwear I think are totally comfortable are my havaianas and they are not exactly multifunctional. Heh. Too vain, too vain...
I finally met Cherie yesterday for late lunch/early dinner. I can't believe I only saw her once for a mere three hourse this hols. ): SEE, too little time!! ROAR! Well, okay... At least I saw everyone I ought to and want to at least once. (:
Tonight's Phuture starred Steff and co, aunty loh, sha and siao... It was good but much time was spent shuffling and I don't know why my stamina was shit tonight. I think it's accumulative. I can almost feel my body surrendering itself to fatigue. I might fall apart soon, physically, unknowingly. Lol. Or may be... I just wasn't high enough. Haha!
Sha and I went for a supper marathon after that! Had Mr Prata with Siao and Kenny then proceeded to Upp Thomson for Kway Teow Gorengwith Sha! Crazy or whaaaat??! But KTG is seriously yummy, I swear. The indian uncle used to give me free food but I think he forgot about my existence already. Boo.
Aye, there are two annoying birds outside my window chirping their lives away now. Makes me wonder if every house have their own morning-chirping bird. Lol. Like y'know, the same birds chirp outside the same house at a fixed time every morning. You think? Me thinks yes. So amusing! Haha. OH, and sha told me swans are the only birds with penises. Hmm!?
Anyway, what's your take on unfaithful partners?
I say treasure what's worth the keep! What the hell are you thinking?? HAHA.
Meanwhile, try digest this.

I know, totally wanna cheat on me... Meoww!
Lol. Shuddup.

Good morning sunshine!

\champagne kisses
7:29 AM

x o x o

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

It's 8.45 in the morning and I dare not sleep cause I have a lunch cum facial date with the mother and I can forget about waking up if I succumb to my sleepy self now. I'll snooze during facial! Shiokness. So here I am, trying to stay awake again but looking very forward to a sumptuous dimsum lunch. (((: I've already decided what to wear so I hope I won't take more than forever to get ready later. I'm gonna try and be on time cause if I don't, I won't hear the end of it. *shyawayfrommultipleglares* I said TRY. Heh.
I think I've been doing far too much shopping lately. Sometimes I pity my mum for having me as a daughter, really. Sigh. Yes, contrary to what many may think, there are times I feel really bad just that these guilt pangs don't seem to last very long each time. Haha!
Okayyy, I think I need to change my spending habits a bit. ): I need to be more sensible, really - It's like a constant revelation (does that even sound right??) yet nothing really ever happens. SIGHSIGHSIGH. I need to become a better person. I NEED TO.
Anyways, my break is coming to an end and I feel like time just leapt across my head. I don't seem to have done all the things I had in mind with the all the people I had in heart. Too little time, too little time... And it seems I'm no longer priority to me but y'know, that's okay cause I really kinda like my life filled to the brim this way. (: There's too much time to be old-ish and laidback in the future so I must exhaust every ounce of my now! Yeah, my kinda-warped theory. Lol. I guess I could do a couple more years till age (complete with wrinkles, sagging boobs and draping skin) catch up with me. Hoho. By then I really hope I'm rich enough for botox shots and lipo or poor enough to not own a mirror. OMGGG. ):
I got an abrupt call from Mark last night only to hear him brag about his "excellent" results and a demand to help him buy cigs. Zzz. Some things really don't change! Lol. But anyway, his call made me realise I.AM.REALLY.GOING.BACK. ROAR. One weeeeek...... Sobs. I will miss people and my princess life. ): BUT...
Things I can look forward to: My beloved kitty, communal living and a genuine attempt to make the best out of school. I'm an optimist! - Since now. Haha!
Anyhoww... Meet Meowzrs!! She's a devilish little tyrant but adorable to the max! (:

It might seem like watching tv's her favourite past time but really, once she jumped on my table and played with my shaver and got her paw pads sliced, leaving bloody paw prints all over my room. After that I concluded she either loved playing with my shaver too much, once bitten twice not shy, or is just plain stupid cause she did it again! Roarr!

That's when she gets caged. HAHA.
Miss you la, meowzrss!
ZOMG. I'm really omfg hungryyyy. I swear I can feel my stomach secreting excessive gastric juice! Gonna go get ready!! (:
Veryoverdue pictures soon! Maybe when I'm back this evening. (:

Adios!
<3<3<3

\champagne kisses
8:43 AM

x o x o

Saturday, July 19, 2008

OMG.
Back from Zouk, had a much needed shower and here I am (clean and nice-smelling), wandering around the virtual land, awaiting 8.45am so as to fulfill my responsibility of waking Steff up for work. Haha. Not that I'm feeling sleepy since I usually sleep 9-ish, but I guess I could really do some sleep after 2000 hours of party and 3000 drinks. Like, seriously. Lol.
But seriously-seriously, BEST PARTY-ING DAY EVER IN EFFING LONG WHILE, YO!
First was the masquerade-themed party at Kenneth's gigantic mansion (or what seems like it) then Zouk with free entry! A lot of drinking, a lot of games, a lot of hot, sweaty bodies and a lot of laughter. AWESOME LA. The company today was spectacular, really! Everyone was spontaneous and funn! I swearrrr... Must be the alcohol! Haha.
AND AND AND, Crystle and I had the prettiest masks at the party!! I don't care for any objections - They were! Seems like our three hours worth of creativity didn't go to waste. Heh.
Life is GooooD! LG. Haha. Omg. Fucking lame. OKAY.I.KNOW.

I shall let the pictures speaaak!
PRELUDE

Top is Funny's, bottom's mine!!

Evidently, everyone was gonegonegonegonegone (another night another day)... HA HA HA.
Wait till I get my hands on the rest of the pictures - nicer ones. (:
Till then y'all!
Yes, I'm damn act cool and lovin' it. HAHA.

Twist!? Peace?! Whatever!
<3

\champagne kisses
7:23 AM

x o x o

Monday, July 14, 2008

Since I'm back in Singapore with plentiful of internet access and uncountable sleepless hours, I've decided to bring this space back to life again after a good long four-and-a-half months. When I told Funny that, she said and only to kill it again end july? HAHA. Okay, I shall try not to prove her right.
After all these months, one thing you have to know is that my life has sorta turned around. Well, not around-around but y'know, sorta. I'm a significantly happier person now, for real. No more daily tears, no more pinnings, no longer entrapped in my own cell of wretchedness. I found strength to laugh again, courage to put the past behind, and a heart to learn how to forgive, which is a journey I'm still on.

Occasionally, when I hear the songs that once belonged to us, go places we used to frequent, do things we once enjoyed or hear the things you used to whisper in my ear, I still get anguish attacks and find myself missing you but I know I will get by just fine. I used to be sad cause I wanted you back but I've realised you are no longer you and I'm happy just missing the better part of you.

My home in Perth is now a not so lavish, humble little cottage (looks like la) but much more lurrrrvee! A little filthy, a little crowded, a little backward but three bags full of laughter and fun. And and and, I got myself (finally, after eons) a little pussy!! I also have stories on crazy confessions and shit like that. Roar!
I'll post pics and more on my 'new' and retarded life sometime soon - I need to get back to mobtv now cause my show is sounding damn exciting in the background! Lol.
Random but I think I need to straighten my hair again soon cause it's getting unmanageable and I'm starting to take more than forever to get ready. Eeks! :p

PEACE!

I know! Face damn fat! ):
Lol.

\champagne kisses
6:31 AM

x o x o

Thursday, February 28, 2008

So it's been 3 weeks since I'm back.
I would like to think I've been moving on rather progressively.
Getting used to being alone, being independent, being without you...
I don't know why words like 'you'll always have a place in my heart' still streak my eyeliner but I know it's almost impossible to revive the love and laughter we shared.
Maybe I'm numbed, maybe you made it too easy for me to walk away by hurting me so bad, or maybe I'm just starting not to see a point in it all anymore but just maybe... And just maybe, I still love you. A lot. Deep down...
Cause your words still touch my heart, cause your laughter still makes me smile, cause when I read others, I still think about 'us' - how picture perfect it was and what could've been.
Sometimes I still question 'why' but I don't cry at every thought anymore. I'm learning to be glad for the things we once had, to forgive but not forget.
It may seem contradictory to put moving on and reminiscing on the same line but you know it's cause no matter how far, you'll always be a part of me.

'We' live forever in photographs and memories - always, always - as promised.

Maybe one day I'll find her who loved me, again.
For now, goodbye to you who left me.

\champagne kisses
11:48 PM

x o x o

Saturday, February 09, 2008

Shite. I need more determination than this.
If only I didn't have to go back!
OMG. Save me!

\champagne kisses
12:30 PM

x o x o